July 2, 2008

Dance in the Rain!

so i finally broke down yesterday and went to get a wig...i was sad and tearful sitting in the chair...but i found one that looked like me...

then...so typical of my life lately...the insurance declined it...
$320 for a wig!!! YIKES!

The good news is today my husband's employer said that even though the insurance declined it...they would reimburse us. whew! it's a small thing...but I just can't even look at myself these days...it just makes me cry.

So tomorrow I go to get it...i hope it's ready...i'll work on a pic soon...hooray!

then off to meet with my new therapist...to help me sort out all my sadness. It's a positive step in the right direction...that, and being home again...it's an adjustment after being away for 9 weeks...but glad to be back...

when i wake with insomnia at 2 in the morning...i can be in my own space...a little bit of contentment...

I've been very stressed out lately, been steam cleaning rugs, cleaning up the house, trying to figure out what to do with the dog...she needs a better home, I just can't take care of her now, I found this link for senior dogs...fyi
...hope they can help daisy

...so now i will do something fun and have a big bowl of chocolate ice cream with a big scoop of peanut butter on top and chocolate syrup...YUMMY!
It always makes me feel better!

'Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.'


  1. You're a beautiful and strong woman. Thank you for sharing your plight. Stay strong! God bless you.

  2. Jodi ....{{{Huge hugs}}}} you have every right to be sad,hurt,angry,scared,tired,and hungry LOL there is no rule book on how one should feel and or react when things fall down around us! We just do what we need to do to survive and at the end of the day we want be judged on how strong or fearfull we were but that SHEW We did that...Survived and overcame... now onto the next adventure and pray that God Gives us an easier more Satifying Adventure...one with just a little bit less stress involved :)!
    Huge hugs ALicia

  3. I'm so happy to know you're back home and got yourself a wig! YAY! That's what my cousin-in-law did, too, when she had to have chemo for her breast cancer. She's doing very well now and I'm hoping and praying you will be soon, too! Take care!

  4. oh Jodi,

    I am so sorry to hear of your sadness! I keep asking Paul how he is feeling because I am afraid he will slip into depression too. Glad to hear you are home now. Keep your chin up!

    Thinking of you,

  5. You may not have hair but you are still very beautiful, inside and out. I wish I had read this before I made my stupid comments. I wish I lived over there so I could look after Daisy for you till you are well.
    I am praying for you.
    Hope the ice cream was good.

  6. I too had long hair before chemo. The wig was a very hard thing to get used to. But I can not tell you how many compliments I got while wearing the wig. People telling me I was so lucky to have such gorgeous hair. It made me laugh!! The wigs are expensive - but you can tell (or not tell) the really good ones so it is worth it. During my chemo - I too had a hard time looking at myself, but now when I look back at pictures they do not seem so ugly. I think we are so hard on ourselves.

  7. I can't believe that insurance wouldn't pay for a wig- and how wonderful that your husband's company would pay for it.

  8. I got a really pretty wig and I have only worn it once. I hate it. I have just been wearing scarves and hats. I hope you enjoy your wig more than I do! ;)

  9. I can't wait to see the wig! (Even though you don't need it; you are just as beautiful now as you were before!) Never heard of ice cream with peanut butter on top (LOL), maybe I will have to try that one of these days. I'm sorry to hear about your sadness; I will say a prayer for you tonight! :) Take care!

  10. Continually thinking about you, Jodi. I'm so happy you found a wig you like, and that you will be reimbursed for it. Feeling good about yourself makes everything seem a little bit better.

    Hugs to you,

  11. I am always thinking about you Jodi, and I hope your sadness breaks. Don't forget I am only a little drive away if you ever need anything at all. Great big giant hugs from Southern New Hampshire.

  12. I just stumbled on your blog through etsy - searching NH - I want to tell you that you seem to me an amazing woman - what a gift to those beautiful little girls that you have. I will keep you in my thoughts often - stay strong - and keep "dancing in the rain".

    C. Loos