June 3, 2008

Day 7 Cycle 1 chemo Update

I was smiling on wednesday when they put the IV in me...but by Saturday I was soooooooooooo SAD!!! You know the feeling when you have had a pony tail in your hair for a long time and then you take the pony tail out...and your scalp is sore?
My whole body felt like that...from my scalp down to my toes...joint achiness, muscle aches, overwhelming sadness....weepiness took over....i was a MESS! I just wanted to crawl into a whole ...and not die...cuz that's what this is all about right?
NOT dying!!!???
so the days since have been a little better without so much achiness but the exhaustion is heavy and the sadness is present all the time...i just want to cry if anyone talks to me....
Calgon take me away....please! The kids are doing pretty good...dd#1 is being perfect....which totally scares me...she's even doing extra homework sheets with out being asked...she needed some extra help with her math...so she is doing it nightly! I'm keeping an eye on her!

dd#2 is a total whiner lately...but maybe she's feeling my pain and wants to just identify with me and my foggy head...she's more absent minded than usual...but they all can't be so well adjusted right?

dd#3 is potty training and is looking for a "TWEET" any chance she can get...a tweet=treat=m&m candies...one for sitting and one for doing her business....she's only 2! well she'll be two in 2 days...my other kids didn't potty train till 2.5 and over 3 years....something is going right!

Gratitude? someone told me to keep a happiness journal...what a good idea, btw!
I am grateful today to have a wonderful friend come up from NY and visit me this weekend. She came on Sunday and left today. It was so comforting to have her close by. My taste buds weren't awful last night and we went out to dinner and i got some yummy mashed potatoes with cheddar cheese melted on top form TGIFridays...worth a try...believe me!

I added the pic from a recent family portrait I had done with my mom and the girls. Obviously this was the old hair...boo hoo. I also wanted to let folks know the comments and wonderful positively positive ideas are priceless...what wonderful gifts! Thank you all so much! ~Jodi

To find more posts about my Art Therapy with my kids as I battle breast cancer...click here.

To find more posts about my journey through breast cancer...click here.

To find more posts about my chemo updates...click here.
(psst...this is the first one...so more to come soon!)


  1. Hi Jodi - I just want to wish you all the best through this journey you are on. Strangely, we are now on it together.

    Take care,

  2. Best of luck to you with your treatments. I have a dear friend undergoing treatment for multiple myeloma. She just began chemo in preparation for the stem cell transplant(?) infusion (?) ... the exact term escapes me.

    I know you will do well!

  3. I will keep you in my prayers. I found you through Amanda's blog about Paul. Who knows why these things happen to good people. I have 3 kids as well, and this definitley reminds you to hug them a little tighter!!! I love your idea for the girls to write out angry notes to the cancer. You will beat it!!!
    -10oneworld on etsy

  4. Jodi:
    I was just going through my favorites and visited your shop only to see your message. I want you to know that your strength and positive spirit really shine through in your posts. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you fight and win this battle.

    All My Best Wishes,

    Jo-Ann (wishupon)
    Wish Upon a Necklace

  5. Leaving a message to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers.

    You are gorgeous! ;-)

  6. Hi Jodi the picture of your daughters and you is beautiful. You are such an inspiration. Keep strong!!
    Love ya