June 20, 2008

Bald or Bionic? Cancer won't keep me down!

So my hair was starting to fall out...this is a sample...GROSS, I know but this was just from a morning shake out prior to my morning shower...then in the shower...oh my gosh...it just got worse! So I begged my friends to shave my head....well, Kim (a.k.a. Deedaloos.com at Etsy.com) did the deed for me. What a friend!
I love you kim!
And Thank You from the bottom of my hear for the wonderful hats! My wool felt hair clips look great on them! These pics were taken prior to the shaving...my favorite one is the brown one! My head will be covered, and warm all year because of you!
Monday morning, over a cup of coffee she did it...a few tears later...this is what i looked like...So I am not used to it at all...my hair is so much a part of my identity...it's my security blanket...some thing to toss or twist when i'm nervous...
dd#3 (2 years old), stroked my cheek and said "hai cut mama? pretty!"
dd#2 (6.5 years old) said..."it looks like you are wearing a pony tail...that's all...it'll grow back"
dd#1 (8 years old) said..."it looks UGLY! Put your hat back on"
...leave it to a child to say what I'm feeling! I'm good enough inside to carry off this hair style for a little while. But it's not who I am and I will grow it out when the cancer is all gone. I will be me again...a better me....a BIONIC me!

The bionic woman became a visual image for me as a symbol of strength during one of my MRI's. The noise it made, made me think of the opening theme song of the 1970's version of "The Bionic Woman". All I could think of while I was lying there was "we can rebuild her!". So if I end up with bionic boobs when all this is over...then nothing will be able to bring me down again!
the baldness is creeping up from the bottom...and bald patches all over. ::sigh::
Enjoy this from youtube.com


8 comments:

  1. Hi Jodi,

    I know this can't be an easy step for you. Paul hates it too but I'm sure it is 100x worse for a woman.

    Be well and it will grow back! : )

    Amanda

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  2. Amazing woman, amazing journey- especiallyheather.com < you need to see her blog. CA brain, beautiful young woman with small kids. She has much hair wisdom : )

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  3. Sending you loads of love Jodi!!! Can't wait for those playdates! Kathi & kids

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  4. "I am not my hair"!! I heard that on Good Morning America when co-host Robin Roberts said it a few weeks ago. She fought breast cancer as well and tossed her wig for good while on the air! Hang in there!!

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  5. You are more beautiful than ANY head of hair could ever dream of making a person. You are a true source of strength for so many people. May God bless you and your family and bring you through this stronger than ever! ((Jodi)).

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  6. Jodi, you a beautiful person! :) You are beautiful with or without your hair! May God bless you & your family always! :)

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  7. I don't know you personally, but from reading your blog I know you are a beautiful person, inside and out!

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    I pray for God's healing hands upon your life!

    Hugs!

    Donna

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