So ellie and I took a stroll through the golf course to take some pics for the newsletter...and she took this one...I suppose if you must know....I'm wearing the HAPPY face...it's keeping most folks fooled....but the sadness is back in spades.
Met with my priest this week with the hubby...it's such a hard place to be right now...wanting him to be there for ME but at the same time knowing he needs time to take care of himself....not sure where it's all going from here...just sad about it all.
My hair is falling out...been that way for 2 days now...it's unnerving...folks are telling me to get a shorter cut...i tried to do it yesterday while at a friend's house...but it's hard to make a friend do it...i can't even imagine how i'd be if this were happening to a close friend...they are great...every one of you...if you are reading this...are great....I have relied on you all so much lately...you are all such blessings.Really not focused today...just sad...but a friend shared a cool blog with me and I really wanted to share it with you all too..."Mother's with Cancer" it was helpful to read the posts...I don't feel so alone with it all. And I suppose I have to remember that I am never really alone...a staff member at my girl's school gave me a medalion today (which was really quite wonderful of her) that has an angel on one side and the words "You are not alone" on the other. I need to sing His praises as He carries me through most days lately. I need to stay positive and live in the LIGHT for that is where I will find peace.
Fighting the fight...but feeling weary as it's only just begun.